First Frost

          This morning I awoke to a light frost. Something I was glad of as I have been wondering how well my fine little house will hold heat. Both fires had gone out during the night and yet it was still 17 degrees inside, and 0 degrees without. The chimney appears to hold a lot of heat for some reasonable time. Good old fashioned thermal mass principals here. I have also observed that the chimney has been built of a stone that looks like it could have come from the local iron ore mines, black and with shiny glass like areas. I shall look into this further as maybe this material is as good as soapstone.  

Mouse sh*t.

Posted Tuesday 28 September 2010, written on Monday

          I've been to the BIG city again, this time to Swedens beautiful capital, Stockholm. Apart from the usual detritus of industry on the outskirts, once on the central islands surrounding "Gamlestan" (Old town), you find yourself surrounded by copper roofed architecture and waterways. The islands are often high, so views are broard and magnificent.

          The contrast between the noise and buzz of the city and the gentle sighing of the pine trees here at "Sven Magnutorp" is enormous, and finding the ballance of how to spend most of my time here and yet enable the necessary funds is a little tricky right now, until the time when I have found local and "home" work and tradeable and sharing options.

           But what has this to do with Mouse Sh**? It's about getting back to basics, it's learning about how to live here, what's already here, how to use the resources available. When I purchased the property, I agreed with the owners that they didn't have to clear out the house in the often expected way, instead they could leave everything they didn't want or need. which it has turned out to be a lot! In fact rather interesting, discovering the history of a Swedish family through the objects left behind.

           Just now there is a program on BBC radio 4 about history through a hundred objects. This is through the British Museum and therefore world wide. My findings are focused in one small place on the planet, and maybe of future interest for this blog!

          Anyway, while cleaning and rearranging furniture, I had to sweep up large amounts of mouse "evidence", which in turn got me thinking as to how to preserve my mouse edible things, for however much one tries, mice seem to like to co-habitate with us if at all possible. Sensible creatures really,as we like to keep warm, they obviously like to share. Just wish they could be house trained and discriminate which plastic and cloth to chew to line their nests.

          More on the mouse situation later, with the answers to questions like, should I kill, get a cat, trap and drive at least 2 kms away, or share my space, at the same time seal food and clothing in mouse free areas. Then again can I tune in to mouse consciousness and share with agreement? (I have read that this attitude is possible! Maybe you know of someone who could teach me)

City visit

For me its all about fetch water, chop wood. In order to live on this planet, there are things we have to do for our survival. Feed yourself, cloth yourself, find shelter for yourself, believe in yourself. These two actions of chopping wood and fetching water remind me continually that I am of this planet. They are daily actions, just like cooking food, or brushing your teeth, yet actions which have a meditative quality about them, a constant reminder that without these two elements I would die. And from this reminder I remember to give daily thanks.

To the world outside!

Yesterday I went into the city......... quite a contrast to this "slow" life.

Two things I noted, was how I allowed myself to speed up to keep pace!

In addition it was easy to get caught up with consumer illness, in fact I spent more than I could afford, although I'm really enjoying the sound of my new speakers!

Upon my return I wished I had "prepared" wood to light my stove. That is kindling and logs already in the basket, so I could light the fire immediatley, after a wet ride on the motorbike.

Something I should have remembered from my live-aboard days. Kialua, the sailing boat I lived on, on the east coast of the United States for nearly twenty years had a wood burning stove. During the winter the cockpit well was my wood locker. most of which was American cedar, so that it's perfume filled the cabin. I always kept cut logs and kindling prepared especially if I spent the day ashore. 

The River

Today I found the closest point of the river to my property, just 750 meters away and down a track which seems practically unused. It looked as if it had been a fording place for human vehicles, but still used by larger animals.

In fact a beautiful spot, and I remember thinking what a perfect place to take a beautiful girl to woo on a warm summer night........at my age it's perfectly OK to dream of what could have been! Now its for me and me dog, to sit quietly and meditate, within the sounds of moving water and the sighing of pine trees and remember those I have done my best to love and who loved me.

Reality?

To be quite honest with you, I am finding it a little difficult to really believe that all this is real. I have dreamed of being in a situation just like the one I find myself in, for so long, the reality feels like a dream.

I have just stepped outside of my little house and seen the stars as if I was in the middle of the ocean. Instead of a slighly curving horizon I am surrouded by the silouetttes of pine trees. I see no other light other than the candle light from my windows.
 
I have been blessed and now find myself in the stewardship of nearly two hectors of land, a small house and small barn. Yes I "own" it, by the laws and systems of our society, but in truth I am only the steward, for I believe we cannot own the land, in the same way as we cannot own the air or water.
 
Just a little more than thirty six hours has passed since I "moved in". I have moved stuff around, making space for my "stuff", I have walked around, my mind full of ideas. I have even cooked a vegetable stew on the wood burning cookstove. My, what a meal. A meal that has started the process of making me feel at home. Cooked over a flame from wood, has somehow made the taste even greater.

 It is very difficult to describe this dreamlike reality, so I can only relate separate ideas and situations one at a time while the reality solidifies.

I think one of todays greatest discoveries is the grandmother pine, right on the very edge of the property. So big around at the base that it takes two pairs of arms to encicle her

Sunrise

Wednesday 15 September 2010

This morning was the first morning I saw the sun rise. The first two mornings I was here were grey. Sunlight streaked in through my south and East facing still dirty windows. Yet through the old cobwwebs and grime covered glass the sun’s crisp morning brightness encouraged a walk outside on night-rain soaked grass.

I know that as time moves on, much of this near overwhelming sense of wonder, disbelief even, incredulous atempt to get to grips with the fact that this is really happening to me. I have begun a journey of ”living” in a way I dreamed of for so long. Dreams do come true, my whole life is a series of dreams coming to reality..............in a life which the Buddah reminds us that all is but a dream!

I hope by keeping and sharing this record, it will show the changes I intend to make towards a truely sustainable lifestyle and at the same time be a reminder of how I feel now to a time when it might seem all work and this ”wonder” all forgotten.